During a motherhood storm it is sometimes hard to keep yourself grounded.
Oh a mother’s heart…it feels the greatest joy but also the deepest hurt.
When they are little and come down with an illness our heart hurts and we want to take that illness away from them. You look into their little eyes and see that they are not feeling good and you try to make them as comfortable as you can. But there are times when that illness gets really bad and you think…
“How am I going to get through this?”
My Motherhood Storm
I want to tell you that you will. This motherhood storm will pass. You are a strong mama and with God’s help you will get through this. God made us mamas stronger than we think. How do I know this? I have been in situations like that and I thought my heart would not be able to handle the hurt. There was one time when one of my daughters was about 2 months old and she had come down with a respiratory illness. I tried steam and rubbing some vapor rub on her chest but there wasn’t much that I could do for her at home. Her breathing was becoming more labored and so I decided to take her to the emergency room.
Praying through the Storm
Did I pray during this time. I sure did. I told God to look at my precious little girl that He had blessed me with and to take the illness away. I thought, she doesn’t deserve it. She is so little and helpless. It wouldn’t have been difficult for God to heal her. All He had to do was say the word and it would be done. I started to get really frustrated as I kept praying and God wasn’t answering my prayers. I tried bargaining with Him. I told God that I would be a better person and would do anything.
On the way to the emergency room I kept praying. I thought what a miracle it would be to come to the emergency room and she would be healed. That didn’t happen. I got my baby checked in and the hospital personal got x-rays done to check for pneumonia and said that we would have to stay so that she could be monitored. It hit me pretty hard then that things might not get better and that there might not be quick healing. I came to the realization that I needed to change how I prayed.
Getting through the Storm
Things happen in life that we have no control over. As much as we would like a miracle it doesn’t mean that we will get one. I realized that what I needed most next to a miracle was for God to help me through that moment. That is a lifelong lesson that I learned back then and it is a prayer that I pray quite often.
“God please help me through this time in my life because without You I won’t be able to get through this.”
God promises to be with us always and He wants us to bring our burdens to Him. I pray for the mamas out there who are going through a difficult time with their children being ill. No matter what you are going through, God can help you through it. If you have family and friends who can help you carry that burden and pray for you then please reach out to them. But if you are alone in this, I want you to know that you aren’t alone. God is there watching over you. He wants to help you. He is only a prayer away.
My Miracle
My story did have a happy ending because we were discharged if I can remember correctly two days later. My daughter did not have pneumonia and the doctor was not quite sure what she had. For me this was a miracle in my motherhood storm.